The title is pretty self-explanatory... I mean, my name is a type of a flower, so if it didn't make sense before, hopefully now it will. I've been through a lot this past year. It's been a long journey of ups and downs, moments of happiness and sadness, times where I've taken two steps forward and three steps back. I wouldn't change any of those moments for anything -they've made me who I am today.
I'm probably at the weirdest part of my life right now. I don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I'm starting to figure out who will be part of my life years from now. It's really scary not to know anything that will happen... not even a glimpse of what's to come. The only thing I have to hold onto right now is one verse that has stuck with me for a while now, Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" I know this might not mean much to a lot of people, but for me, as a Christian, it means a lot especially now that I'm struggling with so many "Why?" questions in my life. They say things happen for a reason, and I believe they do, but it doesn't stop me from wondering why. Why this? Why that? As much as I ask that, I look back on different times in my life where I've asked why things have happened, and ultimately, they worked out. Everything that happened post high school shaped me into the person who wrote those college essays & studied for hours to get into my dream school, UCLA. People come into and out-of my life all the time, and I've wondered what their reason to be part of it was, but I've come to realize that I've learned something from each and every one of these people. I only hope the lessons that I have to offer people will be good ones that will stick with them throughout their life. No matter how small or how large the lesson, I think that someone always has something to offer you, whether it's intentional or not. I've been through more things in the past year than I have in the other 19 years of my life. I'm curious to know how they'll shape my future.
Well... I think that's enough ranting for now.. until next time.
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